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Oh mann Miss Goh, I find it so hard to smile ):
While everyone's talking happily away, I'm there out of the convo, just listening. I have no input to give to the convo. My CCA is supposed to be the most bonded CCA but I don't really feel that way cos, well, they are bonded but I'm not bonded to them. And if I try, then I just feel very fake. I'm not going to force myself to fit in. I think I'm going to be more miserable.
I will not force myself to smile. I suppose, this would make every smile genuine.
